Past Girlfriends

10. As much as I would like to say that from the start I was secure with you, I was not. How can I when you had six other ex-girlfriends. How do I know that you won't tire of me? How do I know that you're not using me for your own despicable purposes? Really, I've never had my heart broken before, I would hate to experience that for real. When I asked about them, you were very hesitant in telling me since you knew full well how I would react... with seething irrational jealousy. You started having girlfriends when you were just in the 6th grade. Of those six, two have broken your heart severely. You've experienced some of your firsts with them. And I get angry just thinking about it. When you talked about them, special in their own way, how you loved them all differently. How far you went with each one. Seeing me upset, you would put me up on a pedestal, telling me how I am the best of all of them and that how you loved me to the point that you'd never break up with me. But I prodded you to tell me more about them, more specifically the one that touched your heart. It was no surprise that you chose your ex-girlfriend that was also your best friend. She was intelligent, beautiful, well-versed, just a tad bit weird with her fascination for a little black magic yet magnetic. You loved her. And she left you for some other guy. I was angry at her because she just didn't see how wonderful you were. You simply said that it was that it was good she didn't or else we wouldn't have fallen for each other like we did. I guess you were right. If even just one of those girls, held onto you, fought for you, you wouldn't be mine in the first place.What matters now is not the past, it's the present and how we are going to make our future together. The past is the past. And I have to say, what's their loss is my gain. Patay na lang sila sa inggit.