Never Let Go

133. There are times wherein I feel alone when we were together. It's like when one rides the highs and lows of a swing I guess. But I never want you to feel like I am being demanding or needy though I come across as that at times when I can't control it. I remember having a hard time opening up to you when I had problems. But I've learned through the years  that when dealing with you, being direct is the best way possible. You're not a mind reader after all and I tell myself that a number of times during the years. But I both admire and detest the way you're becoming more attuned to me so I feel less alone. Have I told you that you're like magic? Everything I could possibly want has come true because of you. And regardless of the times I feel lonely or alone, I feel absolutely feel loved. When we kiss there is such electricity that there is no doubt in my mind that you are the one for me. Strangely, I think it's because of all the lucky people in the world, you've found the most adaptable, excitable creature on the planet. I like being in situations wherein I am fully aware of what is expected of me but I also like situations wherein creativity becomes a demand. Face it, without deadlines or expectant superiors or people depending on you, I doubt any normal person would be so productive in the first place. People need each other. And I need you. And though, I feel negatively to some aspects of our relationship, it would be such a waste to just focus on those things. Why not focus on the good things about it? Like all our memories? That's what I want to accomplish in this blog. A deeper connection to you is my ultimate goal. A showcase through these memories I've collected that we have indeed found our other half so that through reading this, neither loneliness nor fear could descend upon what we have created in this life together. So you have no need to worry my dear. I will be here in spite of everything. I'm never letting go.